Wanting to be loved 2

Envying what others has more to do with emotional things than material. Material has never been a big thing for me because I know that they can be replaced. However, it impossible to really replace emotional things. There is no item that could ever replace the feeling of love. Acceptance is something that really only comes from others.

This envy seems to have a partner named resentment. I read that resentment is a vicious type of self-pity. There is an emotion that I am quite familiar with. Self-pity learns how to disguise itself as something else. Is it really self-pity that says "Why don't I get calls like everyone else?" Wow, maybe it's not really self-pity disguising itself as much as it is envy.

Envy, "As iron is eaten by rust, so are the envious consumed by envy —Livy." I think that this is worse thing that I learned because of the abuse as child. Physical and emotional with neglect is the worst; because, it can be done when the abuse is present as away. You see others with what looks like lots of friends and those that you hang out with aren't really friends. The part that make this the most dangerous is the fact that you can never get any proof one way or the other.

 Prince Caspian story reminds me of this issue.